Mind’s Sky

I am going to be 31 soon. I have never had a boyfriend. Well, I did fall in love. I have never been kissed, passionately. I do not know what it feels like to be loved by a man.

Looks like… I have missed out a lot. Surprise! But I do not like to see my life as a constant “fear of missing out”! No, neither have I reached a state of salvation where I am completely at peace with myself. I do not know how to be happy from within yet, I still harp on other people and materials at times, to be so. However, I have started walking towards it. I have realized that happiness is what we concoct in our minds. It is the value and worth we ascribe to a certain experience. For example, going out for a walk in the evening gives me an immense amount of joy. The rustling sound of the leaves, the colorful flowers strewn on the road, the soft breeze brushing against my tresses…seems ethereal to me. So much, that when I look up to the sky and at the moon, I feel like the whole universe is showering me with bliss and energy.

All my life, I have loved magic and fairytales. Half of my life was wasted in thinking that “why doesn’t it happen to me”. Howbeit, it’s only at 30 that I realized I always “loved” magic but never “believed” in it. I now believe in it, why? Did something magical happen to me? Yes, I have started being more compassionate towards myself, I do not beat myself up for not cracking the best job. I am grateful for trying to wake up as a positive soul every morning, I am determined to bring about change in the world, and most importantly I am thankful for having a thought provocative mind! Now that is nothing less than magic to me. So, it basically boils down to the picture you are creating in your mind. And we often create pictures in our minds of what society compels us to believe in. Like not having a boyfriend is seen to be a source of unhappiness, especially at the age of 30. I might not have had a boyfriend, but I definitely know that reality does not travel from outside to inside, it’s the other way round.

If in your mind’s sky, you are successfully hopping from one star to another — your fairytale has just begun my friend!